what word would you be?

how do words feel when they're crossed out?
would it be worse to be misrepresented,
disguised as compound meaning?
or better to be misspelled, gone unnoticed?
what word would you be?
words come in clusters, but many stand alone.
sometimes, i feel like that the lonely 'a.'
it needs to connect with others to mean something.
but sometimes letting another in like "an"
but why the commitment issues?
if you were a word, what would you be?
i would not want to be clustered among the racist world,
thought up by an angered person on a bad day.
what if you were banned when you never meant to hurt the world?
can a beautiful word have a bad day?
trendy words come and go.
i'd name them Tiffany words.
a one hit wonder.
words that babies make up
muttered, mumbled, praised by parents
made up wonders
 
if i were a word, i would want to be an onomatopoeia,
crash! whrrr! bzazzzh!
sounds spelled out to my name,
different in every language,
spelled to every which way.
a sound is a sound
no conventional rules
no boundaries
not hurtful like
ugly, fat, crusty
not frightful or hateful
like war
not exhausting
like rush or run
or complicated
like love.
words,
emotional, unexpected, and powerful.

what word would you be?